home used to be where ma, pa, sang, sandy n i lived together...
it used to be waking up to ma pulling of our blankets and trying to whistle...
it used to be where pa would sneak in to our room to make sure we are not cold...
used to be the same side of bed cos sang did not like to be near the window..
used to be the same pillow n blanket years after ma said i needed new one's...
in the last few years i have changed so many blankets, beds n rooms...
that i wake up often wondering where am i???
n when i am out and i say i need to get back home....i wonder if i where i live is home
cos there's no familiar sound, smell or people here...
sometimes i sleep with the lights on cause i feel confused and disoriented about where i am
