slipping out of my grasp

i haven't been officially working for sometime and thought time would slow down....but i feel like so much is changing so fast its slipping right out of my grasp.....people are fading out leaving.....i feel scared sometimes cause everything i used to think is constant is changing .....status quo's being challenged every day...it seems like like for every two steps i take to go forward i take 4 in some other random direction.....i feel very disoriented!!