I have been married for more than 4 years now but I have been really living with my partner for 1 year and a half. I used to dread being on my own finally when I figured out how to survive on my own.
Negotiating with sibling about sharing spaces was really different because we knew we love each other to death and mostly nothing I do or say would change that. But with J it was different cause he's my partner yet none of us knew what makes us tick, throw a tantrum, jump with joy, walk out of the house screaming never to return (I confess I was the only one who ever did that), or what the others lifestyles was at all. We both worked together on this journey, sometimes consciously mostly cause of the default situations we were in.
Right now as I am writing we are at a vacation with J's sister's family at a hotel in fort mayers. J's sleeping cause he's feeling a lil' unwell. Next week when we get back to the woo i have a few days before I leave for Hyderabad. This is the first time ever that I feel bad leaving him behind alone. Even though I can't wait to get home in Hyderabad, especially cause gudiya will be a mommy soon I feel sad that he'll be lonely I feel like I'll miss him. This is also the first time ever that I also feel bad leaving Worcester, the town that I hate and love. Love cause this is my first home out of my comfort zone and I know real people from Worcester and I have a sense of community over there after being there for almost three years. Hate because the weather can get harsh and also people are to your face and cold during harsher weathers. You may not love Worcester the first time but believe me its a city that grows on you.
I will give J a hug soon and get in my blanket.
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